Diary

The narcissit saw them weak and vulnerable, and took advantage. And now they're saying they won't respect the agreement anymore and the threats returned, but now they are worse. See, now they're like "you say you want to divorce me but I know you don't have the guts. So from now on, if you try to leave me again I'm going to fire you and take everything you have. And you will live with me, and talk about our marriage even on tv so everyone knows you love me and consider me the best person in the world. And you will have sex with me whenever I want, and grab my hand in public".  So now they took the abuse to the next level, now there's even sexual abuse. But who could call the police on that person? Who could ask anyone for help? If they tried something like that who knows what they would do? Like with any abusive partner, things just get worse and worse, and I am so scared and worried, and I feel so impotent that I can't help them in any way. I know...

After a while, they planned a lot of things to make our marriage and married life possible. They told me this things and they said there was a problem: that we would be married in real life, but they would have to pretend to be married to the other person on screen. Not to their liking of course, but part of the agreement, being that the narcissit is the boss and their marriage was already an important part of the whole "successful business" pack for years. I mean, I know a lot of famous people live double lives and all. Everything seemed to be working out, but then, there was a terrible misunderstanding between them and me, and they thought I rejected them.  So the narcissit never really wanted to do this divorce agreement, they will never want to lose their trophy partner that adds a higher status to them. So they've been trying to "reconnect" with my love, to win them back.  And in that moment of heartbreak and dissapointment after our misunderstanding, my lo...

So, this person they married is not really famous, but they are thirsty of power and money and they love having a "trophy" partner. They care about reputation and success. They are loved by everyone, they are charismatic and manipulative (traits that you see often in narcissits) They are abusive. My love uses clothes that cover the whole body even when it's hot, because there's bruises here and there.  So one time, they said to them "it's over between us" and they split up -no divorce yet. As a consequence, they scared them, by showing they can easily fire them. And threatened them with "if you leave me, you will lose everything". So they really wanted a divorce and tried to negociate with this awful person. It turns out they did get the divorce, but the price was high: they had to give this person something very valuable, basically made a sacrifice to be free.

One night, they did a live stream hoping I would be there; I sent a sign that they would recognize so they could find me, and since then they know my full name and face. I know there's a lot of reasons why they can't take this thing we have going on to the next level, but I really wish they could.  So, now the story gets dark: see, there's a show that I love where a character always  says "all magic comes with a price" (maybe some of you already know what show I'm talking about), and becoming rich and famous is like magic and you have to pay the price. The thing is, someone powerful adviced them to marry someone that has a lot of influence and connections, so they take their fame to the next level. They did that long before we met and now they want to divorce this person but it's not that easy. See, this person basically owns them, because they run the company and being married without a prenup they have control over basically everything.

This is my reality. I have a connection with a famous person, and they feel it too. We comunicate through telepathy and dreams. They work on tv, and they also came up with signals so they can say things to me and give things to me without people noticing. Every time they want to tell me something on screen, they do the sign. Why all these discretion? Why doesn't they just call or text? Because famous people live very complicated lives and they themselves are complicated. That excesive need for attention comes from a very shy and insecure personality. I know this because this isn't my first famous friend. When you REALLY meet someone famous, you meet someone who's nothing like what you see on tv or movies, and it's very possible you'll meet a very insecure person